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    Tonight I'm sad but then again, most of the time I am.


I sit on the toilet seat, wearing nothing but tights and glasses, I rest my feet against the sink and admire my skin;
if I could choose we would never wear clothes because they hide what we truly are. God's creations. Beautiful beings.

As I sit, I hear the rats moving under the floor and inside the walls - the sound is almost like water dripping through the pipes but no, it's them. I know. I know rats, those creatures living in the darkness, feeding on the waste.
This is why I never put my feet on the floor, no, I rest them against the sink so I won't get dirtied.



    My skin is porcelain with carvings. "The rats did this", I said, because it was true, but you wouldn't even listen.
    "You need help", you said, but what I heard was "you are filthy".


Tonight I'm sad. I look myself from the mirror and scrub my skin until it peels off but never gets clean, never becomes beautiful.
I hide my porcelain skin with clothes. I wasn't created by God, but by rats.



    If I could choose I would be beautiful. I would be strong. I would love myself like you loved me.




Tonight I am sad;

I sit on the toilet seat, wearing nothing but tights and glasses. My feet won't touch the floor, but I hear the water dripping through the pipes.
It sounds like rats.
Let me tell you a story of a girl so terrified of herself;

"Wild rodents, including rats, can carry many different zoonotic pathogens, such as Leptospira, Toxoplasma gondii, and Campylobacter. The Black Death is traditionally believed to have been caused by the micro-organism Yersinia pestis, carried by the tropical rat flea (Xenopsylla cheopis) which preyed on black rats living in European cities during the epidemic outbreaks of the Middle Ages; these rats were used as transport hosts."

it's so much easier to blame it all on someone else
than knowing it was you all along.

________________

Lately I have been feeling worthless.
© Helisa
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© 2012 - 2024 hae-ri
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In-Dreams-We-Lie's avatar
This is so sad and lovely at the same time ;__;